Tuesday, January 30, 2007,
Excerpts from the heart
What is love?
Can anyone tell me the true meaning of it?
Is it a feeling towards those whom u hold dear? Is it something that can be understood? Is it a natural occurence? ..Or something that you have to search for? Such are the questions which i ask myself sometimes.. Many a times i am torn between what is real and what is imaginary.. It seems i can quite often be shrouded by loVe's true appearance~ Love for my parents & my sis is probably the only "true" loVe that i can understand.. and have understood~
Some say that there is no such thing as being a "normal" friend with a gaL~ Any gaL.. be it ur best friend.. confidant.. classmate etc~ Of coz.. i myself tend not to believe in such rantings.. I for one believe in "friends" as much as "partners".. Though sometimes.. fate tends to pull its strings and twist what appears to be a "normal" friendship.. into something more. I guess.. sometimes you never know what is installed for u~
Who is to say whom i should loVe? - No one. Only mE~ Yet it seems i can never make a decision.. Just as i thought i had made a firm stand... a gust would crumble the pieces and i'd have to start over.. Some pieces lost.. others seemed to have taken on a different shape~ They don't seem to fit as perfectly as before.. and a new puzzle is presented... or do they?
..i dun wish to be a fickle person.. i believe i'm not. Its just.. sometimes i seem to force myself to think to the extremes.. Ever since long ago.. when i made my mistake.. and realised it.. regretted it.. i've seem to be abit more careful.. Care not for myself... but mostly for the person whom i have grown fond of~
Afraid to hurt.. myself.. but mostly her~ I wish to be the one she can confide in.. someone to take care of her.. someone to loVe.. and be loVed by.. a shoulder to lend.. a hand to support~ Yet.. becoz of my situation.. long-distance separation would be inevitable... i am willing to endure... but i'm afraid she would suffer.. afraid she would feel insecure.. torn-apart...
Do my best i will, definitely. If ever given such a beautiful chance.. once again, I would make sure she doesn't feel as lonely.. make sure she is loVed dearly.. as much as i can.. as Best as i can~ ..If only goD would grant me so..~
*Excerpts from the heart*
`keLvin
2:58 PM
