Friday, December 28, 2007,
I miss you..
I miss you... when I couldn't sleep well in the night..
I miss you... when I take the bus to work..
I miss you... when I look at your messages..
I miss you... when I do not see your messages..
I miss you... when I stare at my handphone.. hoping to hear from u..
I miss you... when I sit idly during break time..
I miss you... when I sit at the dinner table..
I miss you... when dinner becomes painful to eat..
I miss you... when I wonder if you have finished for the day..
I miss you... when you say you can't talk to mE..
...But most of all...
I miss you... ...till it hurts.
`keLvin
2:34 PM
Sunday, December 16, 2007,
Farewell
I have just given my blessings...~
I guess it is time to bid farewell.. and for mE to move on...~
Hope you will always be happy, as you have wished for~
`keLvin
4:35 PM
Thursday, December 06, 2007,
Of the heart and back
Matters of the heart.. and my back =\
First of.. my back. More specifically.. my lower back. Seems to be "weakening" I suppose? Havin' a few more aches and strains than usual. Could be the chair of my room and the fact that my table is toO low and I have no leg space to lift or move them around. =\
Am doing some lower back exercises every now and then.. hope they will help strengthen the back muscles.
And of coz... the more pressing matter (as always) is the confused and wandering heart of mind.
Something that caught my vivid attention just days ago.. "awakened" the "dormant side" of mE. It happened swiftly and without warning. Took mE by surprise... and it shoOk mE quite badly. Its times like these that help to reinforce the love I have for the close friends around mE. This time.. weili came to "my aid" and we had a long heart-to-heart conversation at the beach which lasted throughout the night till 12am. We talked about the individual situations surrounding each of us and the difficulties which were plaguing us. And I definitely got alot out of our talk.. though at the end i was still troubled.. nonetheless, it helped mE realise certain pointers.. and convinced myself that there are things which one must do to accomplish them.
I have decided to focus on something... which I hope will carry mE through. It may end up in complete failure (which I pray it doesn't..) but at least I'll know I have tried. To be honest.. the odds are stacked against mE.. however.. I will try my best to overcome them.. and hope to build a new one.. One which I can call my own.
Also.. just this evening.. I spoke to Ivan aka van-the-man on msn.. and sought his "deep" advice on the matter at hand as well. As expected.. his words of wisdom had an impact equivalent to that of willy's. And it helped to set my plan in motion as well. There were certain things he told mE that really reminded mE of how passionate a person he is. Things he did that got him to where he is today. And though I do envy him abit.. I got alot out of what he said to mE as well.
My dear friend Yu sheng seems to be experiencing a similar predicament to mine.. except his tunnel seems to be much brighter and promising than yours-truly. We talked quite a fair bit just earlier and I was giving him my blessings and told him to push on and seize the opportunities laid before him~ I am truly happy for him and hope that all goes smoothly for him... Although I wish I could say the same for myself. Nevertheless.. try I will and regret I shall not.
*Mika says: "Arigato" to willy and ivan~ And "gambatte" to yu sheng and myself.*
`keLvin
4:46 PM
